My life, and more thoughts...HEALING RAIN

Hi All,
Well I must say, I am so happy that I am so healthy. Finally. I had a cold for the past 3 weeks, that I couldn't shake, so I appreciate being able to enjoy life now. I had lost about 7 pounds, but I think I have put back 4 pounds. Oh well. It just feels good to be healthy. To be able to have some energy back, and be able to do stuff...basically return to the land of the living.

Right now, I am enjoying this song by Michael W. Smith called HEALING RAIN. It is such a powerful song. My friend Susan, adores Michael W. Smith's music, and this song. One day, I had to bear a cross...by hearing her play this song OVER and OVER again(LOL)...but then again, she has to bear her cross with me, and my CARPENTERS music...but anyways, a wonderful song...I think this song applies every day in my life. He sings, "Healing rain is falling down...I'm not afraid..." which sums up how I feel. I am not afraid of my past, in fact I embrace it, with God's love. He has so much love for me, so much hope for me, and he will not leave me alone..

HEALING RAIN(sung by Michael W. Smith)

Healing rain is coming down
Is coming nearer
To this old town
Rich and poor
Weak and strong
It's bringing mercy
It won't be long
Healing rain
Is coming down
It's coming closer
To the lost and found
Tears of joy
Tears of shame
Are washed forever
In Jesus name
And healing rain
It comes with fire
So let it fall
And take us higher
And healing rain
I'm not afraid
To be washed in Heaven's rain

I know what it was like to feel lonely, to feel as if I was gone, no one would care. That's the truth of how I felt. But it's a lie! It's so easy to believe Satan's lies...that no one would care. Even if the world doesn't care, Jesus does! Now, whenever I feel upset, or insecure, Jesus walks beside me. It's the truth! The other night, I was feeling down for a particular reason, I felt as if I didn't belong, confused and just worn out. But I walked by myself, but I wasn't alone. I shared my feelings with Jesus, who I invited to walk with me. I felt comforted, not that my problems vanished, but I had someone who would never leave, nor forsake me. And that is Jesus, the son of God. As much as he cares for me, he cares for you, my friend. I have known Him for about 27 years, and made him my Saviour when I was 6 years old. I remember that night, myself and my sister were laying with our Mother on her bed, having a Bible story before we went to bed. And our Mother was telling us about Jesus living in our hearts. And I wanted Him, and He came into my life that night. He was my sanity in time of insanity...he was my Strength when I was weak, and when I cried, He wiped away my tears and held me.

There have been many, many, many, many times I have decided I didn't need him, or went my own way. But he has always forgiven me and given me another chance. His love is unending, his mercy unwavering. As Gospel singer Sandi Patty says, "I am glad God is the God of second, third, fourth chances..." which is so true. That phrase which is true, gives me hope. To face another day, and hope that this time, I get it right.

Anyways, I thought I would share how I was feeling spiritually. As for life, I may be moving to Edmonton, which is something that kind of excites me. But I will leave all the small details with God. I trust that He will open the door to the path He has for me.

You are loved!

Cameron